一次又一次的相信得来的却是欺骗

选择相信却是欺骗。
心以渐渐变淡,但还是喜欢。
很矛盾的自己。

19 August 2014, the day and would be the last that you will appear in my life.

Letting it go completely is just a lie,
Never once you will have your time for me. It would be either sorry I'm working, battery left 4% etc. Etc. Never that I don't believe but I am blaming my luck for not letting me to have the opportunity to have a good conversation with you.

It's done, the heart will never recover from all these. I'm starting to think I'm an idiot to believe the clean and clear statement. What you said and what you do are two different things. Never blame you, is your choice but just don't get it why you wanna lie. I am able to accept the fact of love and no love can't be forced. But lies are unbearable.

Shoutout to myself, let it go. You are not meant to be. Scrap her off your life. It's all very clear now. But before leaving,  would still pray for her to be safe be healthy and be happy in her life.

GOODBYE my once love. C

Regard,
Gie

Till then, I'm letting you go now, ALL

Never know that answer actually given such an impact.

It still hurt, the wound still there. 

But I know it is very clear now, no use dragging. 

I shall wake up from my dream starting from now.

It's better to know the truth rather than lie.

Very well glad. 

Aching but this will be temporary.

Bye my Love, till then. Take care.

我真的爱了吗

终于把《爱在泉城》两天内读完

故事里说着拥有记忆是幸福的，

也因这记忆而痛苦。

但总比失忆好。

而且爱就只爱一次。

你我的回忆又一幕一幕的上演

都已过了三年，

你有了你的生活和依靠，

我也有了我的生活和工作，

回国见了你才明白原来那份情还在

只是三年里

因时间，因习惯，因环境，因少了联络，

我们都变成了熟悉的陌生人

“ 经得起等待的爱情，才是真正的爱情 ”

我真的爱了吗？

也许我们那时的爱情只是一时的冲动和好奇。

Busy Messy Mind

What have I got myself into?
Mind is a mess.
Will I be blamed for that contract and visa issued.
Or will I be fired from the company and be accused of all these wrongdoing.
Can I trust all these?
It is so dark in this society, even when the person that you think you can trust actually you doubt on them.
Or is it just me thinking too much with my negative force playing with me.
I need to plan myself a future, no morw fooling and got distracted by some feelings that I could never achieve.
Be tough, mind my own business and butt before anything happen.

You will be blessed Angie with all the goods that you have done, and you always have your family. Believe and have faith,  everything will be fine just like always.

Out of Tempo

After the meet up, after that gather, asking myself, is she still there.

Thinking that, it may just be a fling after these 3 long years.

But not knowing it actually have that 'wow' impact.

Diagnose with  the symptom of losing the sense of direction for my future.

As trying to grab the one thing that was never mine.

Knowing the success rate would be 0%

But still it is irresistible.

Act as if it will be fine, running every weekend down South to the luxury city to avoid.

With no avail, it still fail after a month.

Still actually waiting for that special someone text even after these years.